The very LONG Update.

Few Ramblings..

its been quite a while since i've blogged about my life. well, it has been crazy ever since i started working in starbucks. i can say this for sure, working full-time (8hours a day + 6days a week = 48hours a week) can make you go crazy.
Look at it this way. you have 24hours a day, you -8 for sleeping, another -8 for work, that would leave you 8hours a day. hmmm.. what if you're working closing shift everyday like i have been? you start at 5p.m and work your ass up to 1a.m (ok sometimes maybe earlier).
You'll surely take a short nap in the afternoon before work right? alright that leaves you 7hours. minus another 1hour for eating, bathing, washing up. you're left with 6hours. 6 hours a day - what are you going to do with it? spend 3hours with your girlfriend and the other 3 with your guy friends?
When you say 3 hours, it DOES sound long. but when you're actually enjoying yourself during that 3hours, its REALLY short. Thats right.. really short. it may seem like you've seen that person for about 1 and a half hours only.
And what if you do spend 3 hours with your girl and the other 3 with your guy friends? what about your family? HOW are you going to balance it out? how can there EVER be enough time for everyone? Sacrifices has to be made.
It has been like that for me for the past week. My house is in some kind of renovation - reglossed the whole pakae(don't know the right spelling - its the wooden floor you usually have upstairs), and repainting of the rooms that are uptairs. ALL except my room.
Thats because i might probably be shifting to downstairs. (YAY!) i've always wanted to sleep downstairs. :) closer to the kitchen.. and easier to sneak out of the house at night... haha!! (well thats true, but it isn't really like sneaking out for me - i'm 19 for goodness sake)
anyways, i guess i'm contented. Except for the fact that every single day i wish it was monday. why you may ask? Its my usual OFF DAY :) tell you the truth, i never wanted to work. i want to study - and work later on. but i guess i'm working for the laptop that i want.
Holding on! another 2 months before i actually go. i don't want to think about it just yet. don't wanna be anything but happy now. because i am!

previously i posted about the pros and cons about working. yes i maybe repeating myself but i guess thats what i experience in work life. I am going to have to start exercising again. i'm getting flabby. I feel FAT! gosh.. i may not look fat - but its been like a month since i last went for basketball.
i feel like i need to take another long jogg to my girl's place. yes, i took a long jogg to her place before in shah alam. :) call me crazy but i find that its a lot easier to jogg to her place than to discipline myself to jogg around the field like 10times? i won't complete it for sure. DUH..
At least when i do jogg to her place, i cannot stop until i reach. ah! the feeling of accomplishment. :) reaching my goal. Reaching Michelle baby. :) i plan to NOT miss exercising now is to be more random about it. haha.... drop and do 20 when i'm bored. :D
was reading the men's health magazine yesterday and they say it does work. and this guy has been doing it like 10times a day. which means he actually does like 200 push ups a day. which is awesome! i'm gonna start too. Got to start watching my diet too.. ahhh...
i'm so concerned about my physical appearance right? haha.. its just me i guess. i mean i don't feel nice myself if i don't exercise. no andrenaline. no fun. lets hope it works. standing for almost 8hours straight does workout my calf muscles i think, i always have to stretch.
Feels like its going to cramp up. lol..

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other things i wonder about.. like what happened to trust in friendship? how can someone have friends, but don't trust their own friends? ok, maybe you could NOT trust your friends.. but Your Close friends you should trust shouldn't you?
i mean, they are the only ones you share what you think about people, what you are thinking in general.. You should trust them whole heartedly. Never trust someone half heartedly. if you don't want to trust them, don't trust them. if you wanna trust them, TRUST THEM for Goodness sake.
i have a few good friends i trust wholeheartedly. I trust them with almost everything in my life. you cannot have too many Close friends to you, you can never trust too many people at one time. you need to know, who you are able to put your trust in.
Another thing, what happened to rasionality? What happened to thinking logically about things before jumping into shit loads of conclusions that has got nothing to do with the situation? I wonder why sometimes simple things people want to make complicated.
Why is it that always people have to see things in the negative way all the time? what negative thoughts humans have, the more you think about it. the more it'll ruin your life. so don't think negative. it really does ruin your life.
i'm not saying that you shouldn't AT ALL think of the negative things that can happen - you obviously have to take into consideration the possibilities for sure - but rather, if you do think of ways to overcome it! always makes your life better that way.
Confidence - Lost in some friends i shall not say who, but yeah.. Confidence is essential. You have to HAVE CONFIDENCE. Whats with the lack of balls into doing things differently? or changing your approach? Dude, everyone ages. Everyday is a new day.
EVERYONE CHANGES. whether they like it or not, whether they change for better or worse. Hopefully its for the better. Don't back slide - Don't be LAZY. lol.
Just telling myself so. Makes me wonder, why others don't live happy lives like i do.

Maybe i'm just being very optimistic. Just maybe when i'm in their position i'd understand? well, from my point of view now i don't. But i would respect other point of views if they have logical answers to it. But end of the day, being a little selfish of me -
i'm happy!! Pay just came in today at 7.30p.m and i'm rich again! Corey - you need to save RM800 this month don't you forget.. "yes yes i will remember" lol.. i've got a feeling i Might over spend. i probably should ask my baby to help with that. ;) right baby?
i'm happy!! i have had a wonderful time with my girl. yay! :) i feel so extremely grateful for such a caring girlfriend. and one whos a little self-less :) hehe.. Agape love. i like that. infact, i Love that. i Love you baby! :D Thank you for everyday that i spend with you.
Never one day i have regretted not spending with you. You're worth every minute and every second. hehe..

Big Big Thoughts.
Little Little Time.
:D

don't read whats on top. just some loads of crap that i scrambled with thoughts and served on blog. ahaha!
Lastly, motto for the year - "2 Steps Forward, 2 Steps Forward."
Thats so right.

-Signing out-