stress alert!

okay. i never thought i'd say this but.. i'm so stressed!
everyday after class now my head feels like its going to explode. its overheating even before i finish classes. its crazy.. too much input and too little output.
everything is going in. but there's too many things to remember in just one day! how is it going to be possible...

talk about stress, my pimples are beginning to come out now. i hate them. i feel like pinching all of them out. what about white hair? well, my hair's too short now i guess. but if there is i'm just going to pluck all of them out. Always having a headache after class.. i think i need to try sleeping earlier already. i cannot sleep at 12a.m everyday and expect to not feel tired after class can i? nope. its not possible. at least not with 7 hours of classes - 1hour per class and 1 class going through at least 50powerpoint slides.

i think its madness to try and understand everything that we learnt/are learning.
That's why there's such things as revision questions! Text books here are a bumm. they are good for nothing. even for referral purposes its useless. it tells you stories after stories of crap and not about the things that you're REALLY TRYING TO FIND OUT. what kind of text books are these anyway? i wish i had like those oxford ones. or at least using them.

if i'm not mistaken we were supposed to get some original text books. all of our text books are photocopies or self made notes by the administration. STUPID. even the graphs/diagrams in the books are useless. they are so complex and abbreviated at the same time. for example ; they try to fit 3 graphs into one graph and they use abbreviated language to explain what are the lines referring to.. HOW AWESOME IS THAT RIGHT? goodness.

on top of that, the instructors expect us to absorb, remember and understand everything right after they teach it? when they themselves sometimes beat around the bush to get to the point i don't think its possible for us to do so. its so confusing.. so many reasons for everything - moreover they ask us questions and ask us to explain why is it that answer (ok fine that's not wrong but..) they expect us to explain to them in THEIR WORDS? i mean, that's just ridiculous right.. we make the first line of explanation wrong and they go to the next person straight away (specifically a certain instructor)

and when none knows how to answer it in his language - oh! the sarcasm.

ah... i think i need to sleep now. take a nap Corey.


-Core